I keep confusing things

rainbow_bex @ 2004-08-01T00:10:00

2004-07-31T23:14:06Z

I WANT THE INTERNET BACK!

Suzy's party was really good. Met loads of cool people.

I went out with those cool people again today. Might see them again, some of them are going to Bexhill too.

One of them is so hot.

I want to go out with everyone sometime before we go back to college/sixth form.

la la la

Typical, when I get to update my journal, I can't think of anything to say :/

xxx

EVERYONE MUST COME TO BRIGHTON

2004-07-15T16:33:02Z

BRIGHTON

27th July

My Birthday party type thing

The train goes at 9:56am from hastings train station

We might go to the cinema if there's anything good on. Dunno. Depends what everyone wants to do.

And we can meet outside hastings station between 9:30 and 9:45.

Can you text me if you're gonna go please? :)

Thank you please!

(By the way I killed my computer and I haven't died) :D

See you all soon!

xxx

rainbow_bex @ 2004-05-30T20:21:00

2004-05-30T19:23:44Z

okay. I did a really stupid thing.
~~I deleted MSN Messenger from my computer~~

Can you all leave your email addresses in a comment please?
~~I was also stupid enough not to have my comtacts saved on my computer~~.

xx

rainbow_bex @ 2004-05-29T14:42:00

2004-05-29T13:43:18Z

"Last night I saw a dream and you were in it. This is it.
This place has lots of cages. Just like pet shops or a zoo. You were in a cage too.
Although you were a picture, in front of me.
You never moved, talked or whatever."

rainbow_bex @ 2004-05-29T14:00:00

2004-05-29T13:01:19Z

I'm bored.

rainbow_bex @ 2004-05-28T19:44:00

2004-05-28T18:46:28Z

I am so pissed ooff you couldn't even begin to imagine.

I don't think I've ever wanted to smash something up so bad.

Don't even bother trying to wind me up 'cause you will regret it.

rainbow_bex @ 2004-05-27T19:25:00

2004-05-27T18:28:02Z

I lost the exercise book with all of my notes on Educating Rita. Oops.

rainbow_bex @ 2004-05-27T18:45:00

2004-05-27T17:46:09Z

I think Richey Edwards writes better lyrics than Nicky Wire.
Even though my opinion is probably biased.

Nicky Wire wrote a song about wanting to be a girl. Which is... interesting?

Petrified for the millionth time
Slowly my soul evaporates
No parachutes
No dismal clouds
Just this fucking space

I know what's coming
I'm not working

Sweating out intelligence
Like I don't know what it's clinging to
The microwaves
And singing with the soundwaves
I know what's coming
I'm not working

Delirium on helium
I am my own experience

I know what's coming
I'm not working

rainbow_bex @ 2004-05-27T17:56:00

2004-05-27T16:58:22Z

I've been revising english since 10:00 this morning and I don't think I can cope with any more.

Don't think I'll be revising Textiles tonight somehow, oh well, guess I'm gonna be failing them both.

rainbow_bex @ 2004-05-26T20:53:00

2004-05-26T19:55:14Z

Do I have the best layout? Oh I think I do.

Should have been doing english revision today. But I didn't. I did art instead. haha

I decided I HATE drawing people. Observational drawing SUCKS.

And OH MY GOD, I just remembered I had aTextiles exam on friday. shit. I'd forgotten.

Mother is cooking me chicken, pasta and peas. What a way to end the day :/
At least she's trying, bless her.

<3

And then the vegetarians were born...

2004-05-25T18:46:36Z

Heifer whines could be human cries
closer comes the screaming knife
this beautiful creature must die
this beautiful creature must die
a death for no reason
and death for no reason is MURDER
and the flesh you so fancifully fry
is not succulent, tasty or nice
it is death for no reason
and death for no reason is MURDER
and the calf that you carve with a smile
is MURDER
and the turkey you festively slice
is MURDER
do you know how animals die?
kitchen aromas aren't very homely
it's not "comforting", "cheery" or "kind"
it's sizzling blood and the unholy stench
of MURDER
it's not "natural", "normal" or kind
the flesh you so fancifully fry
the meat in your mouth
as you savour the flavour
of MURDER
NO, NO, NO, IT'S MURDER
NO, NO, NO, IT'S MURDER
who hears when animals cry?

rainbow_bex @ 2004-05-25T19:16:00

2004-05-25T18:17:15Z

So. Module tests today.

I think I did quite well considering
a) I arrived at the exam and realised I didn't even know what modules we were taking ^_^
b) after getting into the exam and sitting down, I had to wait for about half an hour for a question paper, because there wasn't enough. I wasn't impressed.

The module 8 one was easy. Just common sense. Totally fucked up module 12 though. I don't even want to know what my results are in that, I didn't know the answer to any of the questions :/

Went to see miss mills after the exam, to ick up my folder, and was talking to her for a while, much to the annoyance of her year 7/8/9 class (I couldn't tell). She was asking me what I planned to do with art before friday and how study leave was going, blah blah. haha.

I just drew Avril Lavigne, Kurt Cobain and Brian Molko. W00t. plan to do some more pics of famous people sometime.

I'm now really bored.
Bye.

Nothing's gonna save you from yourself..

2004-05-21T12:18:55Z

I joined a bajillion communities yesterday and now my friends page has way too many new entries on it.

I also got 4 new albums today:
Lipstic Traces (Manic Street Preachers)
Highly Evolved (The Vines)
Human Conditions (Richard Ashcroft)
Onka's Big Moka (Toploader)

They're all great xD

Can't wait to go to Tunbridge Wells tomorrow. I found a cool jacket type thing in TopShop today and I want to buy it! It was £45 but well worth it. Everyone'll probably hate it. But haha. I don't care <33
I also need a new bag seeing as mine has fallen appart.

This Vines album is weird.. it doesn't sound anything like them :/ It's good though.

And HAHAHAHAHAHA Manic Street Preachers do a cover of Bright Eyes by Art Garfunkel o.O It's... interesting

rainbow_bex @ 2004-05-20T17:45:00

2004-05-20T16:45:30Z

Okay.

I have a Foo Fighters hoody. It's size Large and waaaay to big for me, so I want to sell it.
I bought it for £30 and have worn it about twice, so you can have it for £15-20?

Comment oor IM me if you're interested in having it.

rainbow_bex @ 2004-05-20T17:17:00

2004-05-20T16:17:41Z

Pete Doherty and Carl Barat are in love. haha. It's so obvious.

Also, Pete's probably gonna die before Christmas.
Getting high on crack then shooting up heroin as a way of getting back down again? Fucking divvy.

I'll be surprised if they manage to play Reading.

rainbow_bex @ 2004-05-20T16:53:00

2004-05-20T15:53:53Z

Did you see the stylish kids in the riot?

2004-05-19T12:39:26Z

I talked to God in a phonebox on my way home. I told you my answer, I left you my dreams, on your answer machine.
But I'm a million different people, form one day to the next. Yes there's love if you want it, don't sound like no sonnet. My Lord, my Love. The world don't stop. There ain't no time for cracking up. Believe me friend, happiness more or less, it's just a change in me. Something in my liberty.
Here we are the rolling people, can't stay for long, we gotta go. There ain't no space and time to keep our love alive. We have existence but that's all we share. Yes, I'm coming down, your beauty is a colour, surround into the half light. Mother, velvet morning for me.
Tie yourself to the mast my friend and the storm will end, if heaven calls I'm coming too. Just like you said, if you leave my life I'm better off dead. Rise straight to the light, in or out of time. No time for sad lament.
A wasted life is bitter spent. Child within has healing ways, it sees me through my darkest days. Keep catching the butterfly in that dream of mine. In a neon wilderness, he was restless.

Escape loneliness for a new address.

Oh yeah, I got a new email address. So if anyone uses MSN and wants to add me... Feel free to.
aesthetic_fanatic@hotmail.com

I think I might start using this journal again. I dunno. I'll try and sort out the layout or something. I want to have a frinds only lj but I can't be assed to go back and change all my old entries to friends only.

Lok what you've done... you've made a fool of everyone

2004-05-17T17:52:48Z

I'm having a really weird conversation with someone I never thought I'd be speaking to. But enough said.

Onto the reason why I made this post:

I AM SO PISSED OF WITH PEOPLE THINKING I'M TRYING TO BE LIKE LOIS! LIKE I'M SOME FUCKING CLONE OR SOMETHING.
Why would I try and be exactly like her? I know she's my best friend but therer ARE things about her that I don't like. As there is everyone I know. And I am getting to sick of people trying to make out tht we're the same. Just because we're best friends, and spend alot of time together, doesn't mean we're the same.

Differences

1. We don't look the same. If I wanted to be like her wouldn't I have the same hair, do the same make-up, wear the same clothes?

2. We have totally different sense of style.

3. We are into completely different bands. The only bands we both like are Placebo, Brand New and Taking back Sunday. I like a whole load of indie stuff (which she hates) and she's into punk, pop punk etc (which I hate)

4. We're interested in totally different things. I'm obsessed with art, and she hates it. She's obsessed with the internet and I'm not.

5. We talk to and are friends with different people.

Things we have in common..

1. Using the xD face? Which is a pathetic simularity but stupid, petty people seem to have pointed it out.

2. Being into music? which, to be honest, isn't everyone?

3. And I've run out of things...

Basically. Anyone who thinks I'm a 'clone' of Lois obviously doesn't know me at all. And should go fuck themselves.

rainbow_bex @ 2004-05-16T17:50:00

2004-05-16T16:51:54Z

I GOT IN TO SURREY INSTITUTE OF ART AND DESIGN SUMMER SCHOOL. Yay.

And can you add broken_x_inside to your friends list if you haven't already. Thanks :D

I know this godbye isn't forever, but to me it feels like it is

2004-05-12T21:10:52Z

So. It's the end.

Today has been the weirdest day of my whole time at school.
I know I'm going to remember it like I do the last day of Primary school.
Just because it was so sad!

I can't believe the Leavers Assembely actually made me cry.
It was the music.
And the lyrics.
Just.. ergh.

Okay. Messages to people. (I'd like to point out that I'm almost crying AGAIN now. Because I'm being all emo xD )

Kirstie
You've been my friend for what.. 12 years? Wow. Impressive xD
I think we've gotten closer. And I think you're the one of the only people I can actualy seriously be myself around without feeling like a dork, or that you're judging me. Which is great, and I love you for that.
Thank you for standing by me and not giving up on me when I was a bitch. I would have done if I were me.
And yeah I know it's not like I'm never gonna see you again, but it won't be the same. It's like when we left Primary School. We knew we were gonna see each other again but we still cried our lil hearts out. haha
I won't be able to talk to you every day like I used to and stuff. It will just suck.
I almost want to stay on at sixth form just for you.
Love you forever and ever xxx

Lois
You are my best friend. And always will be. Because we are the hair-dying-buddies and the 'We Don't eat meat' buddies (even though that never worked out. haha)
Thank you for being you. You're the only person I feel I can really talk to. I actually tell you everything, and I think you're the first and only person that I think I've trusted enough to do that.
I'm glad we're both going to Bexhill College, because I don't know what I'd do without you. I'd crash and burn (hehe Booooosted).
And your song made me cry.
I'm going to write one to you.

You're the only one I trust
The only one who cares
And I know
That when all's done
And there's nothing more to say
I'll still have more I want to share

So as this stage in our lives ends
And the next begins
I know you'll be the one to help me through
As I will be that person for you
I love you

xxx

Don't start saying that I'm being stupid coz I'll see you all again and it's not like I'm dying. But it won't be the same.

I met loads of cool people (especially in year 10-11 xD ) and I won't forget any of you! So you'd better not forget me!

And damn you Lois for writing that song. You made me cry. AND damn you for making me cry earlier too heh

Goodbye to 5 years at The Grove.

The End

rainbow_bex @ 2004-05-04T20:00:00

2004-05-04T19:02:01Z

Kay. I just created a new journal. And seeing as I never use this one, I'm gonna delete it.
The new one is going to be friends only, so comment on the intro post to be added.

My New Journal

Becky

rainbow_bex @ 2004-04-19T20:10:00

2004-04-19T19:11:42Z

Which of you drew glasses and a mastache on the opicture of claire in my art book? :/
It's not appreciated.

rainbow_bex @ 2004-04-18T13:26:00

2004-04-18T12:27:32Z

Does anyone know what week it is when we go back?

rainbow_bex @ 2004-04-15T15:35:00

2004-04-15T14:36:49Z

Stolen from beautifulxhate ( sweetxsarcasm )
***
I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less.

Ask me anything you want. Really. I'll answer anything.

Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.

rainbow_bex @ 2004-04-14T19:44:00

2004-04-14T18:44:43Z

Placebo are playing at Reading.

This makes me happy xD